Now how much do I say…….
At the moment the UK is locked in the most horrendous child abuse revelations….. the news is full of it (as it should be actually) and at last some justice might get done….
I was a very abused and neglected kid and the news has this downside…. Memories long locked away do have this tendency to re-surface….. I was interviewed about a historical case a while ago and at that interview I realised I was abused in another case as well… came as a shock and as ever it brings the deep inside shame that just never goes away.
Its triggered the flare I think, something has anyway and that combined has kinda floored me….. I keep feeling this wave of absolute shame and its just gets hold of me deep down and renders me back to a defenceless child if any of that makes sense?
Its not what the blog is for but I just had to mention it… well yell it I guess….
Right the neighs have all but gone 🙂 The mud has got so bad and the break-ins of the sheep shed were becoming an issue lol. It was also becoming a bit scarce of grass time and well its good to just have….. Flower and Phoenix 🙂 They are special but I have not got the feeling for the baby as I had for Primmy cus I realise now the rule of never getting fond of someone else’s animal is best not broken eh?
The girls….. oh they are just so lovely and thinking about it we have saved 6 here from meat! Mind Bre said she was expensive lol. Before these there were 7 others so I think I have paid my debt to my old friend Bengie…. Oh he was lovely and even came walks with us.
No point saying I know what happened to him……Its so obvious but these will never go the same way!
Right rambling away and only half a brain to use lol. The one I haven;t got and the circulation are acting up as well as the swollen fingers and the aches and pains lol. Age was never going to be a friend lol.
Took these the day before they left and they are only over the village so I still see them but don’t have them making mud everywhere lol.
She is a nice little filly actually and so like her brother from last year….. She certainly carries the name Phoenix well 😉
and finally… at last… he did something right lol
Right the cats are massing… with their bowls and bibs lol. Best go feed them otherwise they might get nasty lol.
You all take care. x